| THE PROBLEM OF LEISURE. WHAT TO DO FOR PLEASURE? |
[30 Apr 2007|09:29pm] |
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as of approximately 3:20 today, i have decided that true love is when you eat all the fudge in the half-gallon of moose tracks ice cream, and your significant other doesn't mind and eats all of the crappy vanilla shit that's left. just because they love being with you that much.
i'd very much like to find someone to eat the crappy vanilla shit. who genuinely enjoys it, and isn't just putting it on to try and make me feel better about myself or get in my pants or convert me to some ridiculous breed of catholicism.
hi, god. i know you're always listening and all, but i'd just like to affirm that i'm still down here waiting. i love you too. [thanks for making me just spill my water bottle all over my boxers, by the way. good to know you still have a sense of humor]
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| i see you lying next to me with words i thought i'd never speak. |
[03 Dec 2006|08:43pm] |
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my boyfriend, josh (the jew, our relationship apparently lasted less than two months) broke up with me on friday. so, i guess this is what it feels like to be the dumpee?
he gave me flowers on monday, and they weren't even wilting by the time he broke up with me. (now they are sort-of dead, but the lilies are still holding on. hardy flowers, lilies. wish i could say the same, i'm such a sap.) what a whoring whore who whores, my god!
i don't quite know how to describe this feeling. i'm not depressed, i certainly don't want to slit my wrists and die or anything.
perhaps the proper word is "apathy". it sounds nice enough, though there's something else there. i think it's ... unrelenting cynicism. more than anything, i just would like to laugh at everyone and their motives and their stupid little love songs. they really, really make me want to puke.
but i want to run, too. i want to run so far that i've (quite literally) put everything behind me, and can start completely over.
so much for apathy.
( a selection of photos from recent months. feat. keeley, bri, a marching band, a football team, and lots of conceptualism. )
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| LOCKED. |
[28 Jul 2004|08:49pm] |

FRIENDS ONLY.
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